It's not, "Like I didn’t see it coming, like I didn’t walk in willingly."
I didn’t do it all on purpose - but I didn’t do it blindly either.
I just knew the road I was supposed to follow.
I knew the things I did were the things I was supposed to do.
So, I walked it willingly – I did. But, I didn’t entirely see it coming. I navigated a lot of life without the language of things the way we consciously think of them – rather, with some indigenous knowledge of how things were supposed to be. I knew where to turn and where to pause. I knew where not to turn or when to keep going. I just knew.