Weeks 1-3

Week One To Do, exactly in this order:

1) Get tattoo fixed

2) Create space for self-actualization [apply for jobs I like]

3) Meet with best friend to talk about polyamory

4) Look at some houses - find a storage unit - move out of current house

5) Make sure cat has a place to live while I see the country by RV for a few months (maybe she can come with me if I’m in an RV??? She would like that)

6) Stay single

They say it takes Saturn about 29.5 years to return to where it was when a person was born. At the time this happens, a person goes through a major change or shift in some way. It’s like a mini collapsing-in of a person’s world, or mere aspects of it, so that she can build it back up on her own terms - and possibly / hopefully - with better foundations.

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I don’t know why we happened upon one another, I don’t have to know why.

Maybe it’s just so simple that we are here to appreciate one another.

There probably aren’t enough instances in this world in which we are purely in appreciation and gratitude for our fellow friends, family, lovers.

Wouldn’t that be wonderful….if the only expectation we have for one another is that we appreciate each other and have gratitude for the others' presence in the world.

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missing you + you + you + you

I have never really missed anyone before.

I think it must be because I have always jumped into things (relationships and friendships alike) with both feet and all my baggage (literally and figuratively) – and when the desire and lust and fun were all over, I was done. I could not possibly miss them.

out of one circuit and right into another

I have a new love coach. His name is Jerry.

All he did was this:

He walked into my store and smiled.

I was hooked before he even said a word.

"I'm looking for something to wear to my wedding next weekend," he said.

"I need something long and flowing, like what people wear when they get married on the beach. A long white shirt and linen pants."

I asked if he was getting married on the beach but he said no.

He is getting married in Greeley. If you know Greeley, you know it is the farthest thing from the beach setting I was imagining there is.

Also, not exactly the profound location I would have expected my love coach to be from.